Me, Monica Lewinsky, and the Crush

While of course i hate to admit to having anything in common with Monica Lewinsky, it recently occured to me that we do share one thing, the boss crush. After all this is the only thing i can think of that explains an attraction to Bill Clinton. I mean the guy is just not attractive. Maybe if it came down to which president would you dance the old enlightenment with, i dunno though, i think id probably go for jfk, or abe lincoln...those tall skinny guys can surprise you sometimes. And it seems that i too often have crushes on my boss, or on someone in some position of authority...But thinking about it i realized that the phenomenon is manifest a little differently for me. Let me give a couple of examples. Last summer i worked closely with, basically as an assistant to, a woman who i developed a pretty ridiculous crush on. She was sporty, cute, and cool, owned more sneakers than anyone else i have ever met. She had that whole basketball dyke thing down and basically came across as very much in control, the person you turned to when things went wrong. I started crushin hecka hard, had to eventually reign myself in when i started daydreaming about the day she realized it was me she wanted and not the ultrafemme lipstick trendy cute girls she usually dated. It got a little nuts, to the point where i was blushing when she walked up. There was this day when i messed something up and she got mad at me and i just about cried. Thats when i knew i needed to refocus my energies and let go of this, for me, typical...bosscrush. Summer before that it was yet another softButch, large and in charge Latina Dyke. It got pretty silly, flirty, and ridiculous. mostly becuase she was dating someone who also worked with us, which i didnt realize..I remember telling the girl she was dating about a dream i had that involved her, the crush, not the girl...anyway they both basically thought it was cute and silly. which it probably was. Right now i have a very slight and subtle crush on my current boss, who is amazing and smart and extra calm, and im sure you guessed it; large and in charge, softbutch, latina...yeah theres a pattern here somewhere. In school though its a whole different thing. I have this ongoing crush on my former prof/current academic adviser who is brilliant, a little stiff, youngish for a proffesor, clean cut, leather loafers and trouser wearin dude. its pretty well in check i think. except that i tend to get just a little silly when i see him. Cant even explain what it is, although that brilliant thing cuts a lotta muster with me. Other school crushes include my old creative writing teacher, who was in fact quite young, a grad student, dancer, and wonderful poet in her own right. I give extra points for poets and dancers, especially if they have a slightly husky voice, and she did. So an obvious part about the teacher/boss crush is that they are in a position of authority, which is hot. But i guess for me its the safe, never gotta act on it, completely never gonna happen in the real world that lets me go a little nuts. So there it is. Thing is, Lewinsky took it too far with the good ol pres. Or maybe just got carried away. Probably he didnt get that part about not acting on it. Some people just dont.