well once again its been a while

see at first it was madness, the last two weeks of school and all my teachers wanted papers from me. i mean some serious insanity. then it was this final project at work and then a final final final paper that i co-authored with another student. also insanity. first who ever heard of anything like that and second, well the paper the thing itself. it was nuts. i went a little nuts trying to write it. not to mention formatting and printing and cutting and pasting and copying in order to achieve a paper in the form of talmud in response to a novel in the form of talmud and having literally 20 outside sources to make sense of the damn thing. then it was cheets birthday and the poncho drama and planning for this big party thing and starting to pack....anyway...now im just sort of puttering around a lot. leaving in a month, trying to do some work but not getting a whole lot right now....and finding that after all that madness of just wanting a minute free and now i have literally weeks and have no idea what to do...too much freedom is just fuckin oppressive sometimes. like today i got stuck in the bathroom fucking with my hair for like an hour. called a friend and when they told me it was almost 5 i was completely struck dumb. i had gotten groceries and eaten cheerios. and that was it. its getting a little annoying to tell you the truth. and its not like i have nothing to do its that its all so unstructured that i hardly know what to do first...oh well...