talkin shit

so when i told lil jen i had sent out the link to my blog she was like, well you better be careful what you say.
i was like, its cool..not like im trying to talk a bunch a shit about the folks in my program...or at least that is what i thought...
then one of my roomies told me that someone had told her, that i was talking some shit up on the blog about some peeps...or they had gotten that impression or whatever.
now im trying to say what i got to but avoid the shit talkin..not cause im such a nice person or some crap but cause i gotta see these same fools all year long and they all speak the same language as me and i aint trying to piss them off. sitch like this makes for some unlikely allies i will say that much. and i think thats what i was trying to say when somebody got the impression that i was talking shit...
the thing is that there is a fine line.
whatever it was that pissed off whoever it was, and i dont so much care...well it was probably a moment when my ass was tiptoeing the tightrope between observation and judgement...thats a tough one.
i wanna just be down for all of us being different, and notice in which odd and interesting ways we are, and yet i know that a lot of that comes off as judgement, and some of it actually is...whatcha gonna do? so from now on ima talk shit in spanish.
i was hanging out with some kids, friends of my roomates, and i was all, man can i get something better than this huevòn shit everybody use all the fuckin time here...i mean seriously..big balls?? ok fine so they are really fuckin big but come on..thats yer all purpose cussword?
culiado, it means fuckin, but it doesnt sound like it...and theres all kinda puta this and puta that...not so much feeling that either...i dont see myself walking around yelling whore at things that dont function, like computers and microwaves...
i was like, dont you have something stronger, something more like what they got up in mexico...believe you me i miss me some chingar, joder, coger, pinche...
and dudes was like yeah you can say chùpalo! i was like, i kinda like that...it means suck it..and you can add lo que cuelge, so then its like suck the thing that hangs, its combersome in english but its basically like suck my dick...only better cause its vague...and then theres anda de la chucha de tu madre...basically, walk to the cunt of your mother...again theres a certain ring that gets lost in translation...also one can just yell chucha! or alternatively concha! i like that, next time im hella pissed im a be all CUNT!!!!!
cause the thing was that my ass was hella unable to express anger in spanish, i was all like. i am angry. you sir have made me angry. stop the bus. i say stop the bus. now. you have given me anger. you get the point...my shit was not functioning effectively...and now...well now i know that i can use cusswords in mexican spanish, chilean spanish, and english, and i can basically get my point across... so to all the folks who think my ass some kind of judgmental bitch who be talkin all kinda shit, well im sorry but what else can i say other than...
¡anda to the chucha de tu pinche madre!