yeah im a frickin after school special..

so yall know i was havin some issues around christmas, i always do really...its just that family holiday crap leaves me feelin really vulnerable and brings up all the ishes with the fam and abandonment and whatev..
so you know i was feelin a lil abandoned cause ashley bailed on our antichristmas plans to have nochebuena dinner with her pololo nick and his fam...
and i had to agree that i was for the best really but it left me feelin a lil bit sad and lonely, especially as lesha also had dinner plans with her pololo and maca with her fam...
sooooooo
lesha and felipe said i was welcome to have dinner with them plus his dad and hot brothers...
maca explained that the fam was coming to our house for nochebuena (aka xmas eve) and i was welcome...
so i ended up having two christmas dinners...which was awesome...and i realized as i rushed around looking for the perfect presents for lesha and alicia(la mama de la casa) and helping ash with something for nick and helping maca pick out a gift for ashley...i hadnt been abandoned at all...

i had several families, starting with alicia who welcomed me into her home and seemed to not mind my halting spanish and made little jokes about my cooking habits (toast and cookies is a a meal in my mind) to maca who adopted me as one of her girls right off the bat to lesha and her pololo and his sweet (not to mention fuckin guapppppo) brothers and adorable dad to my evil twin herself and her awful sweet pololo who brought us both silly felt flowers...

so i told everyone how much i loved and apprieciated them and cried a bunch while they laughed and hugged me and said we know rach we love you too...

and then the folks from home called, and passed the phone around so i cd talk to j and kermel and cheets and vic...

and then the next morning i opened the presents from my fam and they had hooked up the body butter and bath scrub and smelly candle sitch...

all in all it was a frickin merry christmas...