getting schooled at school

so i have turned in three papers and done one presentation which went reasonably well despite the fact that jen pequena was running so late she not only didnt meet us before class as planned but didnt show up until 30 minutes after class had begun and gabby and i were nervous as hell all where the hell is lil jen...

turns out she was running late and fixing citations which she said wed fucked up bigtime, i only had a handful of em but yeah id def fucked em up and she just couldnt help but add a little more info abt the election which is fair enough...

so we did our heres afghanistan past and present causes and repercussiones bit in castellano, and it was a little bit muddled by the language and our nervousness...when we finally got to my part which is near the end and titled systemic abuse against women i was all wooohoo and everybody looked at me funny at which point i was like, not woohoo for violence against women, thats not good, woohoo cause this is my part...

i had facts and figures and charts and graphs, no kidding i got this graph showing causes of death among these women in which maternal mortality is overwhelmingly higher than cancer and violence and thats just insane to me they actually have the highest maternal mortality rate worldwide due to the fact that women cant be seen by male doctors and skilled female healthworkers are in short supply which isnt surprising since the illiteracy rate among women in the 70s was 94% and all the regimes since then have been against educating women...things are getting a little better now there are some programs going in but jesus its a mess and the karzai gov has shut down five schools for being co ed which is against the laws of islam and to me thats just fucked cause they need all the schools they can get but anyway now im going off again which is what happened in class and they was like wrap it up and i was like but i have so much more cause we aint talked about the insane fertility rates or lack of contraception, 2%!!!!!!!!!! of afghan women use contraception...

anyway so homeboy was like yeah yeah wrap it up...whatev and then after he was like you guys did a good job but be careful with language yall dont wanna come off like georgy "us and the terrorists" you have to talk in terms of terrorist tactics and specific groups who use terrorist tactics...state actors use terrorist tactics too...just be careful about labelling someone a terrorist and think about who gets to decide who is and is not a terrorist..

i was like oh damn i didnt even know that shit was in my head, that category and the application of it...the notion that i can just blithely call someone a terrorist when that is clearly the easiest and fastest way to abrogate someones civil rights...

so today i am writing a paper abt a book i never read which is the most useful bit of stupidity i have learned here in chile where they assign so much reading that you generally choose to read either the critica or the book...and it just depends on how much other shit is going on...i mean partly its that i read real fuckin slow in espanol but then theres all this pressure im not even reading stuff cause i wanna anymore its all about this paper or that quiz i tell you what im sick of the school sytem here and i cant wait to get back and take classes i enjoy and get to discuss shit and come up with new ideas and approaches instead of parroting back the going theory...on the other hand i do like all the theoretical crap i just want a little more of a mix between the two systems...and its gotten so cold lately all i can think is its nealy summer in san francisco...

right now i am having an allergic reaction to a new soap or lotion or the water or the air, bumpy itchy redness all over my neck chest shoulders and ive already taken antihistimines and cut out new lotion and new soap starting to think im allergic to chile....