slight improvement on all fronts

the rash is going away while i remain monstrously disfigured i am attempting to catch up on the mountain of schoolwork i have been neglecting for the past week or so...

roomie sitch also improved. i decided sunshine laws shd be in effect and openly discussed what had gone down with the brazilian and with the n carolinian and the ash. figuring the more open the whole thing is the less likely to be repeated...

but i must say there is mad sexual tension up in this house. while the brazilian and i both remained somewhat chastened for a day or two, especially after he told me hes only ever been with the girl hes with now...whoa. yeah buddy. and i was like wait but you said she studied abroad for a year and you both saw other people and he was like well i kissed other people and i was like. oh. damn.

yet the little fucker (perhaps i shd call him a big fucker) insists on playing a form of chicken with me that nobody can win, has not significantly modified flirtatious behavior and now instead of responding to verbal warnings (in order to point out that a line is to be drawn between friendly hug and hey thats your tongue on my earlobe- i usually say yer in danger) well so that worked for a while but last time he just laughed at me...i guess i take things too seriously, he just doesnt think its a big deal and seems to know what his own limits are and follows them..

i have a pretty clear idea now what his limits are. i am not the only girl hes kissed in this country and probably wont be the last...and its hard to explain to those of you that dont know him that he seriously is about the sweetest guy ever so hes definitely got good intentions and isnt trying to get laid...i mean seriously a year with his girl in another country dating other people and he never.....i mean shit.

and the north carolinian accused me recently of playing chicken with him, cause i like to say really lewd shit to him, just amuses the hell out of me cause its so easy to make him get a little uncomfortable and for me the big difference is that i would never ever even consider taking any of it seriously...

other than that i just masturbate a lot. got the elephant who is like the rabbit only trunk instead of ears, but honestly i kinda prefer to do that by hand. im just so fuckin good at it. yes ive become my very own hunnypot lovemachine...despite the itchy rash, i still find me attractive. its amazing how long this thing has lasted with me. i think i may be the one.

but then theres this whole thing about being regalona of the house which i generally love cause it means that everybody hugs me and gets silly with me, the one chilean kid is always calling me names i dont know to make me look them up or calling me fuckin gringa (i taught him that one!) and everybody is pretty affectionate with me...but its wierd maybe im just a big fat complainer but sometimes im like PUT ME DOWN STOP HUGGING ME FUCKIN SUELTAME ALREADY....but when nobody loved me i complained too so maybe its all relative...

and then theres the countdown. one month and one week and 4 days...(3 hrs 16sec)